好天气

看写post的频率，就知道我这几天有些时间也有好心情，就象维也那近来的天气 :-) 前天交了Hardware Modeling的功课，教授说我们组做得好。也是，花了很多时间的！终于还算没白忙一场。今天整天在家，本来要看HW SW Codesign的资料，后来想想，也该轻松一下，所以就在网上闲逛。刚刚还给自己煮了点好吃的，心情级佳。和Chris讲了三通电话，早中晚，他真是个会关心又会体贴人的男人，无微不至，处处为我着想，用他的话说是处处为我们着想。看来明年是真的要结婚了，我们。他是人间四月天。

Handy

I often forgot my handy at home these days. It's my alarm clock to wake me up in the morning. Several times I forgot it on my bed-side table when I left home in rash. I did so yesterday, and today again! Still remember the time when I didn't own a handy, life was not bad either. But once we have it, we couldn't manage to live without it anymore. Uhm... my problem is, I missed the calls from Christophe, the only way for him to contact me when he is abroad. He calls me several times a day, tells me whatever good or bad, which I can share with him. I am at the university now. Just recognized that I forgot the phone today again, feel so upset.

Friends

Had a long day today. Went working this morning, had a lab tutorial in the afternoon, then back to work until seven. Tonight we (Jörg, Thomas and I) were invited by Hussain to a Persian restaurant which I recognized later that I was there once with Hafez and some others three years ago. Since Chris left to Congo this time I haven't really had time to cook for myself, just ate salat and some easy food, or other times bought pizza, spent most of my time learning. Tonight I had a sumptuous dinner - we ordered many delicious Persian meals: lam, calf, vegatables, kebab, with different kinds of sauce, wonderful taste. After the dinner we had a little chat at Thomas' place. Though I didn't talk much, listening is also joyful. Hussain is a funny guy. We haven't seen each other for almost four years, but he hasn't changed much. Actually I didn't see Jörg and Thomas in the last whole month either, wanted to invite them for a dinner at home when Chris was here. Pity that I was much to busy with the lab exercises during that two weeks, didn't manage to organize a dinner with them together. Just got home, I'm thinking, especially now, so nice to have friends, someone I can talk and spend nice times. I cherish it.

Long time not written anything

Well, that was a long time since I accessed our blog. Kind of no time, or no access or no mood to write. But today things were kind of different. I have access, time and willing to put down some of my thoughts.

I'm just back in the D.R. Congo from Vienna where I just spent two wonderful weeks in company of Yilin. Every day I realize how important our relationship is for me, and how lucky I am to experience such a healthy relationship, especially when I look around me, and see how difficult it is for most people to find a partner who is not totally neurotic, egoisitic or depressed and even when they find one, how it seems difficult for them to live their relationship. It seems either people create problems out of nothing, cannot communicate with each other, or are not willing to make simple concessions which allow for their relationships to live on. So after all, I guess I'm not just lucky, but also together with somebody who is willing to accommodate a guy like me. And frankly, I don’t think it's always easy, especially when this guy, me, lives most of his time abroad. Yilin you are just fantastic.

As far as my job is concerned, though I like doing it, it does not offer me much advancement perspectives. Some incompetent people seem to take a malign pleasure to hinder other people's advancement for the sole sake of exerting their discretionary powers. Just not fun, but seems this is the way this organization is working after all. I'll give it some more chances, but if it turns out that it will hinder our relation and/or my own professional perspectives, I'll just leave and look for some other jobs which allow for a normal couple life and are a bit more rewarding.

The positive thing about it, however, is while many people have just been too long in missions and don't have a sense of what normalcy is and are kind of fucked up mentally, that they are all alive, meaning that rarely you will find somebody depressed, or not willing to take its life into his own hands and advance. But most of the time money corrupts them to stick into these kind of jobs, and I don't wanna end this way. So besides all the setbacks, this is something I do like about this life, but only for a while, since I have somebody very much a live and definitively not mentally insane waiting for me.

Well I think that will do for now. Tomorrow I fly back to Bunia for another undetermined period of time awaiting my redeployment to Kinshasa which might just not take place. Future will tell.

Wish you all well.

累

好累，电脑看到头昏眼花，今天整天吊在institute的服务器上，上传改过的源码。谁让他们周末不开lab，只能上线做VHDL的功课，最后上传得过限量了，气人。不过也很晚了，该要休息，已经越坐越冷。
挺长时间不写blog，今天想要讲个简单又复杂的问题。人物各有形形色色，不分高矮胖瘦、贫富贵贱，都无干系，哪些素质应当具备？我的看法如下。首先，诚实。这也不用多说，人人懂，懂不等于能做。其次，乐观。可易可难。问题来了不能免，而没事找事，自寻烦恼，何苦。若有化腐朽为神奇的力量，佩服。而后，识趣也颇为重要。小学的时候就学过一片文章 《看云识天气》，科学也很哲理。这一点通常和智商挂钩，举一反三也是一样的道理。怕就怕灵不清。再后，尊重。尊重自己，尊重他人，尊重客观事实。或者说，接受自己和他人，接受客观事实。这三方面互齐互重，缺一不可，否则及易导致心理偏差。其实还有很多，今天就到此为止，太累，休息更重要。

Free SMS

I used some free web SMS services before, however so-called free is often just bait, or if a site once worked it became lousy after a while and I was never sure if the other side received it. As sending SMS from handy directly is anyway not expensive, I just switched to do so. Actually I call instead of SMS, because my Yesss call per minute is even cheaper than SMS.

Since ??? (don't remember... but loooong), I was vexed that Yesss is unable to send Chris SMS :-( International calls to D.R.Congo are €€€, so what can I do? This time !tonight! I surfed around web and finally found something cool. Post the links here maybe you will need. I hope my findings will keep working for a while.

• 50 free SMS after registration: www.smssend.org, ok for Germany and Austria, but not for D.R.Congo, the other countries I don't know... try it out.
• Free SMS to UK: www.cbfsms.com. Not difficult to find in google that there are SO many free SMS, handy logo and ringtone sites for UK.
  
• Here is the really cool thing I meant www.sms-lotse.de. Although many ads, it simply worked - I sent SMS to Congo... magnificent! You can also go to www.smsgott.de straightly.
  
  

Oh right, if you don't know German, here is howto.

1. type handy number under Empfänger box, and message in Nachricht box, then click Weiter
2. an ad box will appear, just wait for several seconds untill another page loads, a confirmation of what you've tpyed in will appear
3. now you can click the ad box which is above Bitte hier klicken, um Ihre SMS zu senden
4. another ad window will open, but doesn't matter, just return to the original tab where you were and wait for a few seconds. If you see a message Ihre SMS wurde erfolgreich verschickt, it means the SMS is sent.
   

Stufen - Hermann Hesse, 1941

Wie jede Blüte welkt und jede Jugend
Dem Alter weicht, blüht jede Lebensstufe,
Blüht jede Weisheit auch und jede Tugend
Zu ihrer Zeit und darf nicht ewig dauern.
Es muß das Herz bei jedem Lebensrufe
Bereit zum Abschied sein und Neubeginne,
Um sich in Tapferkeit und ohne Trauern
In andre, neue Bindungen zu geben.
Und jedem Anfang wohnt ein Zauber inne,
Der uns beschützt und der uns hilft zu leben.

Wir sollen heiter Raum um Raum durchschreiten,
An keinem wie an einer Heimat hängen,
Der Weltgeist will nicht fesseln uns und engen,
Er will uns Stuf' um Stufe heben, weiten.

Kaum sind wir heimisch einem Lebenskreise
Und traulich eingewohnt, so droht Erschlaffen,
Nur wer bereit zu Aufbruch ist und Reise,
Mag lähmender Gewöhnung sich entraffen.
Es wird vielleicht auch noch die Todesstunde
Uns neuen Räumen jung entgegensenden,
Des Lebens Ruf an uns wird niemals enden ...
Wohlan denn, Herz, nimm Abschied und gesunde !

As every flower fades and as all youth
Departs, so life at every stage,
So every virtue, so our grasp of truth,
Blooms in its day and may not last forever.

Since life may summon us at every age
Be ready, heart, for parting, new endeavor,
Be ready bravely and without remorse
To find new light that old ties cannot give.
In all beginnings dwells a magic force
For guarding us and helping us to live.

Serenely let us move to distant places
And let no sentiments of home detain us.
The Cosmic Spirit seeks not to restrain us
But lifts us stage by stage to wider spaces.
If we accept a home of our own making,
Familiar habit makes for indolence.
We must prepare for parting and leave-taking
Or else remain the slaves of permanence.
Even the hour of our death may send
Us speeding on to fresh and newer spaces,
And life may summon us to newer races.
So be it, heart: bid farewell without end.

(Translated by Richard and Clara Winston)

阶段 - 赫尔曼•黑塞, 1941

正象花都要枯萎、青春都要
让位于老年，一生的各个阶段，
各种智慧、各种德行，也都有
它的盛时，不能保持永远。
我们的心，对任何生活召唤
都要准备告别过去，迎接
新的开始，以便勇敢愉快地
屈从于另外一种新的约束。
新的开始都具有一种魔力，
它保护我们，帮助我们活下去。

我们要欣然跨过一片片空间，
对任何地方，不当作故乡留恋，
世界精神不愿意束缚我们，
它要让我们一级级提高、扩展。

我们对某种境遇刚感到舒服，
过得安逸，就有松劲之虞，
只有准备出发启程的人
才能摆脱麻木不仁的习惯。
哪怕残废的时刻会把我们
重新送往那些新的空间，
生活也不会停止向我们召唤……
好吧，心啊，告别吧，保持壮健!

(译者姓名不详 - 所以若译得不好可不关我的事哦!)