Well, that was a long time since I accessed our blog. Kind of no time, or no access or no mood to write. But today things were kind of different. I have access, time and willing to put down some of my thoughts.
I'm just back in the D.R. Congo from Vienna where I just spent two wonderful weeks in company of Yilin. Every day I realize how important our relationship is for me, and how lucky I am to experience such a healthy relationship, especially when I look around me, and see how difficult it is for most people to find a partner who is not totally neurotic, egoisitic or depressed and even when they find one, how it seems difficult for them to live their relationship. It seems either people create problems out of nothing, cannot communicate with each other, or are not willing to make simple concessions which allow for their relationships to live on. So after all, I guess I'm not just lucky, but also together with somebody who is willing to accommodate a guy like me. And frankly, I don’t think it's always easy, especially when this guy, me, lives most of his time abroad. Yilin you are just fantastic.
As far as my job is concerned, though I like doing it, it does not offer me much advancement perspectives. Some incompetent people seem to take a malign pleasure to hinder other people's advancement for the sole sake of exerting their discretionary powers. Just not fun, but seems this is the way this organization is working after all. I'll give it some more chances, but if it turns out that it will hinder our relation and/or my own professional perspectives, I'll just leave and look for some other jobs which allow for a normal couple life and are a bit more rewarding.
The positive thing about it, however, is while many people have just been too long in missions and don't have a sense of what normalcy is and are kind of fucked up mentally, that they are all alive, meaning that rarely you will find somebody depressed, or not willing to take its life into his own hands and advance. But most of the time money corrupts them to stick into these kind of jobs, and I don't wanna end this way. So besides all the setbacks, this is something I do like about this life, but only for a while, since I have somebody very much a live and definitively not mentally insane waiting for me.
Well I think that will do for now. Tomorrow I fly back to Bunia for another undetermined period of time awaiting my redeployment to Kinshasa which might just not take place. Future will tell.
Wish you all well.
I'm just back in the D.R. Congo from Vienna where I just spent two wonderful weeks in company of Yilin. Every day I realize how important our relationship is for me, and how lucky I am to experience such a healthy relationship, especially when I look around me, and see how difficult it is for most people to find a partner who is not totally neurotic, egoisitic or depressed and even when they find one, how it seems difficult for them to live their relationship. It seems either people create problems out of nothing, cannot communicate with each other, or are not willing to make simple concessions which allow for their relationships to live on. So after all, I guess I'm not just lucky, but also together with somebody who is willing to accommodate a guy like me. And frankly, I don’t think it's always easy, especially when this guy, me, lives most of his time abroad. Yilin you are just fantastic.
As far as my job is concerned, though I like doing it, it does not offer me much advancement perspectives. Some incompetent people seem to take a malign pleasure to hinder other people's advancement for the sole sake of exerting their discretionary powers. Just not fun, but seems this is the way this organization is working after all. I'll give it some more chances, but if it turns out that it will hinder our relation and/or my own professional perspectives, I'll just leave and look for some other jobs which allow for a normal couple life and are a bit more rewarding.
The positive thing about it, however, is while many people have just been too long in missions and don't have a sense of what normalcy is and are kind of fucked up mentally, that they are all alive, meaning that rarely you will find somebody depressed, or not willing to take its life into his own hands and advance. But most of the time money corrupts them to stick into these kind of jobs, and I don't wanna end this way. So besides all the setbacks, this is something I do like about this life, but only for a while, since I have somebody very much a live and definitively not mentally insane waiting for me.
Well I think that will do for now. Tomorrow I fly back to Bunia for another undetermined period of time awaiting my redeployment to Kinshasa which might just not take place. Future will tell.
Wish you all well.
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